Thou Art Worthy

"Love Him totally who gave Himself totally for your love." –St. Clare of Assisi

After having tried and "failed" at so many things I began to believe my life wasn't worth anything. I thought that the lives of others would be better off without me. My daughter always preferred to be with her grandmother and it seemed like my family never came to my place to see me. I was a magnet for unhealthy relationships. My attempts at getting a degree were just that – attempts. My finances were horrible. Bankruptcy, repossession, eviction, bad credit, you name it. I had no hope, no faith, no light. I was in complete darkness; right where God needed me to be.
He opened my eyes so I could take a good look at myself. I saw things around me that I knew were not me. I found myself in places I should not have been with people I who supposedly cared for me. I was doing things I know I should not have been. Most of the time I was high, drunk, and alone. Finally it hit me, "What are you doing to yourself?!" it was at that point when things started to change.
The Lord heard me and began calling my name. A hunger and a thirst rumbled in my belly that only He could feed. When I had questions and needed direction the right people, books, and programs would just pop up. I stopped smoking, drinking and getting high cold turkey all at the same time. My financial issues took a radical change. I went from not being able to get approved for an apartment to finding a private owner who didn't care about credit to two years later being approved for a mortgage. But most importantly I shed relationships that were toxic to me and began the most satisfying, unconditionally loving relationship I have ever known.
God loves us in spite of us. We all fantasize about a relationship where that great love would lay down their life for us and rescue us from the evil one. Well, there is no fairy tale about it, someone already did. We are worth so much to God that He created and sent His only Son Jesus Christ to live our sin, show us how to rise above it, and then died to save our souls. He loves us so much that he has already made a plan for us to live spirit-filled, abundant lives. Jesus came back after He died to reassure us that we would be okay if we abide by Him and allow the Holy Spirit to dwell within us. Jesus is our Intercessor, our Comforter, our Protector and Provider. He is our Confidant, our Friend, and our Father. With Jesus we are never alone.
No one other than God can value us more. One we open our hearts to let Him in, His love will give us the ability to love ourselves and others more than ever before. We will know our worth and be able to tell others our testimony enabling others to see their worth. I praise God for rescuing me, loving me, and delivering me from evil.

"Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created." (Rev. 4:12, KJV)